Hello, first let me get this out of the way, many of you may claim this thread is an attention/pity speaking thread. Well it's not, I want to show to people and prove to myself that I am aware. Several people have advised against me making this thread, but I won't be satisfied until I make this thread. It pobably started 2-3 months ago. I slowly became more immature nonconstructive and according to @HazTheMan99 a "nonce" One of my biggest goals on meepcraft was to be a role model provide a good time and further grow and contribute to the community. At first they were just sarcastic things on threads. Then I made a troll report, and then I made a troll suggestion, it didn't seem that bad to me until I realized I was wasting peoples time. I stopped making those threads but still I kept making comments and doing just annoying things. About 2-3 weeks ago I started to notice here and there certain parts of the community being biased and a little upset with me. Thought maybe I was just being sensitive or they had a bad day. And I kept doing that until I decided it's time so stop blaming others for my wrongful actions and taking responsibility. And I did I tried to clean up my act be more friendly, not leave negative thoughts and so on. Then it all came crashing down. 2 words. Trolling video This by far has been my biggest mistake on meepcraft (other than scamming 200k back in 2013) and I am still receiving harsh criticism and other thoughts about this video. It seems as everyday I need to apologize, which I rightfully do. This whole experience has come crashing down on me, possibly ruined my chance at EVER being media. I really have learned to never repeat or take part in anything like this again. I really do apologize from the bottom of my heart, to the staff members involved costebrine and the community. As of now the trolling video is down. So here I am it's 8:17pm on a Monday night typing what ever comes into my mind from my heart. Not sure whether this thread will bring me down more or help mend the stitching I tore in the community. -fasehed --- Double Post Merged, May 2, 2016, Original Post Date: May 2, 2016 --- I also will be apologizing to several people I have affected in game.